F everything, it is way too late for me to up...again. Crazy how the lack of an 8:30-5:30 job will really affect your sleeping patterns. No obligation to get up god awful early makes me stay up later. It's probably not going to end up being a good thing, but I guess for the second night in a row... I'm ok with it. If you see the previous entry, you'll notice that nothing is going on really. I'm bored. And chatty. And I don't know.

I struggle a lot with independence. I get overly confident in my ability to do things and sort out things on my own. It's strange because in some aspects I'm intensely and hopelessly dependent on others, and then in other areas I would rather just do things by myself. I'm trying harder to allow myself to be changed by those around me. Apparently intregity has something to do with being honest about your doubts and emotions about things, as well as fully feeling them too. Sometimes it's a struggle to be honest about yourself in certain relationships, because that means that I have to own up and trust that other person. It's scary, but freeing. Trust God trust God trust God. I don't have to save the world, turns out it's already be done. I need to stop worrying about the outcomes of things and whether or not I can control it. SO Kenzie just breathe breathe breathe. I'm good, I'm ok. God is good and never-changing. So, I'm good. He's revealing Himself to me in so many monunmental ways lately and I pray that I can continue to follow Him. But not my way. Trust God trust God trust God, I'm good.

And please take my 9th grade xanga out of my life forever, thank you.