I like summer

Some things in life just make a person feel better. Seeing old friends, seeing new ones, and mixing the two together. I like feeling like myself for days straight with no reservations. It's good to feel like your old self. I will get to feel like that for about 3 months. It's also good to grow up too though. Things like being outside, reading cause I have time, sleeping, driving around with no agenda.. it's just nice.

Tonight we sat outside and colored awfully with these tricky pastels and all managed to color like kindergarten. Lanie spits out this really cool picture. I enjoyed it. I enjoy life. I like going into businesses and knowing people. I like knowing I have beneficial things to do that do not wrap around some lame social agenda or schoolwork. I like choosing to do things. To help because I want to. I like choosing to wake up early- just because I can. And I enjoy the day. I'm not so worn down.

I like to wear what I want, say what I want, and do what I want without everyone just noticing and questioning. I can breathe. I have room. Whew, it's just so nice.

It just feels good to be back in familiarity. It's healthy to be reminded of the security you've known for so long through your friends and family and life you've established. Becuase now it reminds me that I need to get out and find my place elsewhere. I've outgrown this famaliarity. I love it, I enjoy it when I'm here, but it's interesting to realize that this is no longer where I'm supposed to be. I'm in no hurry though. I'll take it as it comes.

As for now, I am happy.