The Way I Are

So it has been brought to my attention several times in the last couple of times that the way I dress is bothersome, or considered "weird" to SOME. Saturday night Collin texted me. Our texting conversation goes as follows:

Collin: Hey I'm watching a band called cruiserweight and the lead singer kinda reminds me of you lol
Me: Wait. What? How? Good or bad?
Me: Are they fat? (I forgot to send that in the first text)
Collin: Bad kinda
Me: Well then how does she remind you of me?
Collin: I don't know, the way she dresses
Me: Ok, well how does she dress?
Collin: Just really weird


WHAT? Fortunately my good-humored self loved and I cracked up at that for quite a while. BUT THEN I remembered that previously that day, my mother made me change 3 times before our outing to Dallas to watch Taylor. I got several comments along the lines of "Kenzie are you really going to wear that??", "Kenzie, you don't match at all", "Kenzie your sweater is wrinkled", (after looking at me) "Haha oh Kenzie you're so strange", and then the ever so forward "Kenzie, you should probably just change".

What does all this mean? Nothing I guess but these are really only two examples of comments I receive quite frequently. I mean, Collin wrote a list of things he doesn't like and "the way my sister chooses to dress herself" is along with a list like "bugs" and "misrepresented ebay items" and "turtlenecks".

So what does all this mean?

I'm not sure. I'm not hurt or offended, I guess I really just think it's funny because I thought I dressed pretty normal. But apparently I never match and if someone compliments my absemble for the day, it's usually on a day that I didn't like what I picked to begin with. This is a very shallow blog, but nevertheless this needs to be said. Just for years comments with surprised tones like "KENZIE you match today!!" have just become the norm. Or in high school when Cody Clifton would look at me, roll his eyes, and something terrible to me. Just things like that. I miss those days, and I like being that girl. HA

Sarah what do you think?


Who knows but on another note, lately I feel happy. I don't know why. I feel more at ease with myself and who I'm becoming. It's nice to feel comfortable with things you're doing and not doing, and where you're at. It's easier to love others when you yourself are in check. God's taking His sweet time, but for now I'm okay with it.

"I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been but I know where I want to go."

So I thought I'd let you know.